Crucify

Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces
then I get afraid what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach
I got a desert in my mouth
figures that my COURAGE would choose to sell out now.

I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
just what GOD needs
one more victim

why do we crucify ourselves
every day I crucify myself
nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
every day I crucify myself
and my HEART is sick of being in chains

Got a kick for a dog beggin' for LOVE
I gotta have my suffering
so that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter
he says will you ever learn
you're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird

I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
got enough GUILT to start
my own religion

why do we crucify ourselves
every day I crucify myself
nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
every day I crucify myself
and my HEART is sick of being in chains

please be
save me
I CRY

Looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in

Where are those angels when you need them

why do we crucify ourselves
every day I crucify myself
nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
every day I crucify myself
and my HEART is sick of being in chains

Tori Amos

From Tales of a Librarian